Crazy Life

Where to start:

Cousin had heart surgery. They guy is barely over thirty. Then had to have emergency surgery a couple weeks later to remove fluid that built up around his heart.

Aunt was in a major car crash and spent a few days in the hospital. Doing better now. The whole situation sucked but could have been much worse. Once I knew she was alright, the worst part for me was the lack of acknowledgment from her children when I went for a visit. The best part was getting a text and a thank you card from her when she got home. Her kids may hate me (I'm not biologically related) but at least she still cares.

Went to dinner with the ex. A band was there (and they were awful) so we didn't talk at all and I've not heard from him since. That was.... three weeks ago? Wow. The whole friends thing lasted long. Whatev. I'm not even hurt.

Some how got set up by one of my managers at the wall to go on a date with her boyfriend's cousin. That's tomorrow. I'm not excited. But I'm going in with an open mind. I have a coworker whose husband works with the guy and they told me "He's weird." And I'm not attracted to his facebook picture/profile but I'll give the guy a chance. Why not? The manager told me about him and told me to find him on facebook and let her know if I was interested. That there was no pressure because she'd not said anything to him about me. Okay. But somehow Saturday morning there was a message in my facebook inbox from him. Timestamped at 2:28am. He'd just gotten home from visiting his cousin and my manager and heard about me. Crazy stuff. So if I disappear... just kidding. I'm meeting him at the restaurant.

I have started a bit of a countdown. I will have either super happy exciting news in nine days or I have the potential to be heartbroken in nine days. Either way, it will be a relief to know. Just pray that I am able to accept the answer.

And one last note. My neck issue has seemingly returned. My face/neck is puffy on the right side. And where my scar used to be a straight line, it is now dented in again and has a red circular sore going through it. And today it opened. Pus and blood. Gag. Sorry. What's worse? Tonight, sitting on my couch, just watching tv on the laptop, my neck started bleeding profusely. My fingers were no where near my scar. It's not like I'd been touching it or anything. And the scar is four months old... not exactly fresh and easily opened. No. This was like the stuff that came out last time. So what? Did my thyroglossal duct cyst reappear a third time?!? In only four months?!? I've not even paid off all of my last surgery. I have an appointment to see Dr. Ken Doll on Wednesday after school and I bet he'll be as stumped as I am. This is not exciting. My mom is livid. And I'm just irritated.

Oh, I lied. One more note. Tonight, I paid off one of my credit cards! Woot. Thank you federal tax refund. That is one less monthly bill. One less stressor in my life. And though I should use the remainder of my refund to pay off a portion of another card, I'm heavily considering a Nook Color instead. I want to go play with one for a while and determine if it's really for me.