Haven't I Been Here Before?

A fresh start? More like starting over. But first I have to get to the point to where I CAN start over.

Up to my eyeballs in debt. And using only the tiniest of spoons to dig myself out just isn't cutting it anymore. In fact, I think I'm worse off now than I was two months ago. I'm in serious trouble and facing the possibility of being unable to pay my rent. Yep. So bad that I've created a spreadsheet to propose lower rent for this month with increases in the next four months. Something that is more in my budget. But that's not going to work in the long run and I will find myself right back here again. Especially with personal property taxes due next month. A disgustingly dismal ego-deflating disastrous cycle.

The credit cards have been taken out of the wallet and hidden away so as not to incur further charges. The budget has been stuck to as best as possible but gosh darn it, gas is expensive and I had surgery (no cheap thing, let me tell you) and those bills have started. I've gone shopping and done some Christmas things already which is part of the reason I'm where I am. But I've also tried to be smart about it. It just wasn't enough.

So here I am, a college grad, with a career. And I'm going to be working part time at Walgreens once again. Always lucky to have Walgreens to fall back on. It is kind of a miracle how this happened.... Last night, I was looking at my budget and balancing my checking account and realized how low I was. And decided if I am ever going to pay off any of my debt, I better get another. Then I went to bed. Before I could fall asleep though, I got up and decided right then and there to fill out the application online. During my first recess today, I called them to let them know I'd filled out an application and also to let them know about my previous Walgreens experiences that didn't go on the application. So I called and talked to the manager. She said I needed to come in and do the skills test in store and she would be looking at applications tomorrow. Wow. Talk about luck and good timing... so I am sitting at my desk, waiting for tutoring to start after school (my OTHER job) when my phone rings. I answer it and it's the manager at Walgreens. She's already called and talked to my most previous manager and also got a phone call from one of her own employees. Her employee broke her foot and has been instructed to stay off of it. So she NEEDS somebody asap. Fate? I don't know... but of course Mr. P said good things about me and I went in after tutoring to do the skills test but the computers were down. I will have to take a half day at school to get my drug test done but I should be able to start at Walgreens next week, nights and weekends seasonally. Any little bit will help at this point. And even if I only use my Walgreens wages to pay off some debt, it will be worth it.

If I can hang on three more weeks. I will have my December school paycheck, my tutoring paycheck, and a first paycheck from Walgreens. But until then, if I don't already have it.... I don't need it.