Another step...

Today was.... an emotional day at church.

A lot of tears and a short heart to heart with Pastor Randy at the end.

And on the way home this evening, another Relient K song that really further drove home the point.

Today's sermon was about Communion and what it should really be about to take Communion. And for some reason, it got me thinking about when I stood up and accepted Jesus into my heart as my Lord and Savior. This should have been a happy memory but for some reason, I felt it wasn't good enough. Like somehow, because I was young when I did it that I didn't truly appreciate what He'd done (and that because it was so long ago, it didn't count anymore since I've not had religion in my life in so long) and what it meant to let Him in. And it made me feel like maybe my acceptance didn't mean anything, wasn't valid.

And that's why I went up to Pastor Randy at the end to talk to him. And he said that the Lord understood and provided "steps" for us to get closer. And this was just another step I was taking. Me being there at OBPC was not just coincidence or because Caysea brought me... but was because of Him. My step.

So on the way home tonight when "Pressing On" came on... I had to smile.

"We're on to something good here.
There's only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with You.....

Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.......

We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for jou, in You I found it......

You look down on me, but You don't look down on me at all...."

Just a few choice lines from the song... google it for the whole song which has many more great lines. These were just the ones that really stuck out to me after my conversation with Pastor Randy.

And he said he noticed that I cry each week... I'm going to have to be a bit more inconspicuous about that...