I'm afraid...

Three fears: 1. Spiders and most other creepy crawlies. Why? I don't know. I know most of them can't really hurt me but they give me the heebie jeebies anyway. When I was younger and this fear was even more irrational, I had a Zoobook about spiders and I didn't even like turning the pages because I couldn't see what my fingers were touching and what if they were touching a picture of a spider?!?! Bleh. See? Irrational. 2. Ending up alone and not having the experience of being a wife and a mother. I don't think I'll end up a crazy cat lady or anything but watching friends reach certain milestones makes me wonder what's taking so long for me. 3. Death. Not my own. But growing older and watching the people I love get older and die. I've already lost two grandfathers and I know my grandparents aren't getting younger. Not just my grandparents but my parents, aunts, and uncle, too. The older generations of my family. And the sucky stuff that comes before death. The old age. Alzheimer's. Parkinson's. These are things my family is already dealing with and it stinks. And it's just going to get worse. And that terrifies me.